In terms of Baby's development, there is no new news!! PRAISE THE LORD. We had a sonogram today at 21 weeks and she is looking good, according to Dr. Weiss, our maternal fetal medicine specialist. Her measurements were normal as was her beautiful-sounding heartbeat and organ development (besides her heart.) She is the size of a carrot this week and I feel her poking around inside all the time. Perhaps from habit, I find myself looking down as if to see the faint imprint of a foot. Soon enough, I'm sure.
Her heart looked the same. We'll get a better, more detailed look on Monday when we have an echo-cardiogram done. We'll also hopefully get to understand a bit more about her anatomy specifically. I look forward to this so that we can pray specifically for small miracles in its development.
We truly feel carried by your prayers and have since we've shared our news. It's by God's grace that we are so at peace. God's plan is a good one, despite it being a little different than what we may have "planned" for ourselves. Trusting in Him gives me peace knowing that I don't have to play event planner, because He already is. In retrospect, I realize that although I truly believed God was in control of my life, that I had "let go and let Him" take the reigns, that I hadn't quite. It was when I walked through darkness and truly surrendered, that I had finally let go. And what a liberating feeling it really is. Liberating in the sense that no matter how much pain I may suffer, there is always hope. There is always peace. There is always God.