Wednesday, April 25, 2012

I WILL FOLLOW

It's hard to answer when people ask how I'm doing.  On one hand, my days are mostly spent playing with cars and trucks, reading books and making "cracker sandwiches."  (If only Little P would eat more than crackers and air.)  But on the other, I grieve the loss of our Sweet Charlotte.  She is gone and now we stand here as the wind rushes by, and life begins to "settle down."  But what if I don't want it to? 

It's not up to us to decide.  Just to follow.  And trust.  And I'm okay with that.  Though I wish that my girl were here with us to experience all that is our life together.  To hear big brother's screams of joy, take in the familiar smells that are our house, to hear the birds chirping and Bear barking...to have to squint from sunshine.  I wanted her to taste life but I have to remember that she did.  She felt the incredible love her of her parents, the compassion of her medical team, the peace of God's love as He cradled her.  Although Charlotte experienced a lifetime of struggle, she lived a good life, always surrounded by His love and those who continue to carry her in our hearts.






3 comments:

  1. Sweet Sarah, all of your posts are beautiful and these pictures melt my heart. I want you to know that our prayers for you have not stopped. You continue to be lifted up as I have heard that sometimes the "afterwards" can be the hardest part. I continue to ask for God's comfort to surround you, to bring peace that passes all understanding, for His presence to be with you all in a real and mighty way and mend hearts in ways that only He can. Not that you will ever ever ever forget sweet Charlotte, but that God will heal the pain and sorrow of loss and enhance the joy and love that she is. My heart grieves for you in the loss of your sweet girl, and yet I take comfort in knowing that she is not "lost", she is in the hands of her sweet Savior living life in a place that is perfect beyond our wildest comprehension. Because He lives, she lives, and it will be a glorious day when you see her again in the place of everlasting joy and love. We love you and are continually praying...

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  2. This post made me tear up. The pictures are beautiful! I pray for you & your sweet family every day. May you continue to find peace during this time. xoxo

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  3. BEAUTIFUL PICTURES, I AM ALSO PRAYING THAT GOD WILL GIVE YOUR FAMILY
    STRENGTH,COMFORT,PEACE, AND UNDERSTANDING THROUGH THIS VERY DIFFICULT
    TIME. THINKING OF YOU, JUDY

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